TW: Discussions of self hurt.
Sure, I do know I’m late and that Self Hurt Consciousness Month was March however my latest publish (concerning the disastrous ending of my remedy classes) took up a lot time and vitality and emotion that I simply didn’t have the house to jot down the rest and definitely not in time for the top of March. However I did publish this as a part of my latest foray into TikTok and I believed it summed up my journey fairly properly so it appeared becoming to share it right here…
It was a shifting expertise to see so many individuals sharing such susceptible tales however I feel the experiences posted seemingly skewed in the direction of: the entire tales that I noticed ended positively, with the person celebrating being clear of self hurt for nonetheless lengthy. And that’s nice, don’t get me flawed; it’s superb to see folks share how onerous they’ve labored to maneuver ahead, to course of and heal and recuperate. However I feel it’s usually the case that those that are nonetheless struggling don’t really feel capable of share because of judgement or comparability to these ‘additional down the highway’ or as a result of their tales aren’t conventional ones. I don’t contemplate mine precisely conventional and I feel that’s as a result of my self hurt use has largely been because of my Autism and my problem regulating my feelings. So I feel it’s vital to share that have, in addition to the truth that I don’t know what it is going to appear like sooner or later and the way that could be a horrifying idea.
I don’t have the solutions and, on this season of my life, I don’t have any poignant, sensible phrases both. I’m simply taking it daily as a result of even a single day can really feel overwhelming proper now.